I've written a bit about who I think I am and what some of my life goals are. I am actually starting to feel like I am accomplishing some of the goals that I have set for myself. When my mom got diagnosed with Breast Cancer, I took a long hard look at my life and decided to make some changes. Unfortunately, I decided to make the changes all at once. I should know myself better and I should know that I need to go slow. I need to make some small changes and make them stick and then move on to a few more small changes so that in the end I will have made all the big changes, just over a long time period. I have totally eliminated soda from my diet. With all of the new information surrounding soda, I am hoping that eliminating this will help in many ways, not just eliminating the bad things in soda. I am doing better with eating healthy foods. I think today might have been the first day I have been totally vegetarian, lacto-vegetarian, but vegetarian at least. I know need to continue in this manner then start moving towards vegan, yet if I have some meat at some point, I won't beat myself up about it, because I know that will just spiral me back to where I don't want to be.
Now that I have a working washer again, my laundry is getting more manageable. I am back to using cloth diapers. It's a little hard with Michael being in school and wanting to ensure that I have enough diapers for him. I have enough, but I just need to get into more of a routine with ensuring that there are cloth diapers for school. It's only been two days of school so I know I will get into more of a routine as time goes on.
As far as crafting and being creative, I just don't seem to make the time. I should plan better so that I have a project to work on while I watch my favorite tv shows. I am participating in http://flirtyapronswap.blogspot.com next apron swap again. I am really excited for this one. I have requested a full garden apron and put that I love bright floral prints. I am so hoping that my partner sees what I like and makes me a beautiful apron, like the ones that I have already received. I love how creative others in this swap can be. I am really looking forward to getting my partner and working really hard to get a package together that is really special.
Lastly, not that this is a major piece of who I am, it's really just the outward appearance of me, but I am again considering cutting my hair really short. I have spent the last year and a half growing it out and am actually for the first time in my life, loving my curls, which is what is making this decision so much more difficult. For years, I had a pixie style haircut and loved it. I felt a little outrageous, probably not the right word, but I can't think of a better one. I felt like I was saying yes I can be feminine and have really short hair. I loved wearing makeup and really wearing dramatic colors with the short hair. This was also pre-kids. Not that short hair is difficult, but you really need to get your hair cut often, especially me since my hair grows in so fast. I really need to wear make up to really make the short hair look right. The funny thing is, when I was getting married, I contemplated growing my hair out and my sister in law mentioned that it may be foolish since short hair was what I had been wearing for years and was at that time who I was (not that you should be defined by what you look like, but short hair was who I was). I am thinking that short hair is who I am and I should go back to wearing my hair short. I think my husband will shoot me if I tell him I want to go short again. I was thinking that given that my mom is getting chemo and that there is a good chance that she will lose her hair, I would cut my hair short in support of her losing her hair. I wish my hair was longer, then I would have no qualms about cutting it. I would go pixie short once again and donate my hair. I don't know that I can wait long enough to let my hair grow tile there is 8-10 inches of hair to donate. I don't know why hair is always my thing to obsess about. I think for a bit, I was afraid that to be feminine I needed to have long hair. I'm not sure I feel that way anymore. I think that I had fun with short hair and I think that some day soon I may end up with short hair again.
Just a few things about me. I hate to say that the hair paragraph is really what I needed to write about. It's not exactly what I want to focus on with this blog, but it is who I am and I think that I needed to write about it to figure out what I want to do, not that I have made any firm decision yet.