My binge monster is back and it is totally rearing it's ugly head. Since last night, all I've wanted to do is eat. Not only do I want to eat, I want to eat junk. Not only am I wanting to eat it, I am giving in to it. I can't keep doing this. I really need to sit down and maybe attempt something that I've seen used in psychotherapy meetings. I am going to literally try to talk to an empty chair and visualize that my binge monster is sitting there. I am going to tell him how I feel about him and what he is doing to both my physical health and my psychological health. This may sound a little crazy, but I've heard that if you basically personify the issue, it will help you to overcome your issues. I am going to say good bye and tell my binge monster never to return.
This may be an excuse, and I tend to be good at justifying things in my life, but I am wondering if I am starting with some PMS type symptoms. If this is the case, it's even more important that I deal with these food issues now, before things get out of hand. There are so many reasons to change my eating habits. First and most important is my pre-eclampsia history puts me at greater risk for blood pressure issues and I already have cardiac issues in my family, second is my breast cancer and other cancer risks, third is my potential allergies/intolerances, and fourth is just my overall health and well-being as well as needing to lose a good 25-30 pounds. Add onto that list with PMS issues and skin issues.
There is no reason for me to give into my binge monster. This is going to be quite a fight I'm afraid, but I know in the long run, I will win!