Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Wishcasting Wednesday

Jamie at asks what treat you wish for.  I wish for time.  This is probably something that everyone would wish for.  I don't wish for more time for things like housework and boring things like that.  I wish for more time to relax, be creative, have fun, read a book, sleep as long as I want when I want, and travel.

Tomorrow it will be a year that I went on bed rest with the twins.  It was a very trying time since we were afraid that I would go into labor and have them way too early.  Thankfully I had them 12 weeks later.  But I had 3 months of having to do nothing (I hated it then and probably would hate it even now that I want time), but I didn't really utilize it the best I could.  If I could go back and do it over, I would have done things totally different.  All I did was sleep and watch TV.  I would have read more, still slept, watched less TV, created more, relaxed and meditated more, etc.

One day this may happen!

Friday, October 23, 2009

The Joy Diet: Risk

So I have been commenting on the Joy Diet chapters on this blog for a couple of weeks.  Risk is not something that I am good at doing.  I am not a risk taker!  I fear failure!  Unfortunately I am a perfectionist and if I don't think that I can do something, I very rarely try it.  That is one of my biggest faults.  I may have a true desire, but I don't attempt it due to fearing failure.  For me, it's amazing how the 3 topics have melded so well.  The first thing that I wrote about was desire.  One thing that I think I desire is using my love of creativity and my professional career choice of social work to provide for my family.  That also contains some of what I wrote about with regards to creativity.  I am so afraid that I will make a fool of myself by failing that I don't  want to take the risk.  One thing that I have been thinking about doing is combining journal making with journaling (as a job) so that I can be creative and also utilize my degree which I worked so hard for and actually do enjoy.  I am taking a professional workshop in journal in December and hope that it will help me be able to take a risk and move forward with this dream.  Even if I don't truly act as a social worker, but can just show people the benefits of journaling, I think that I will be happy, especially if I am also helping them to create the journal that they are documenting in.  Along with this I think that I would love to do more with soul collages.  I experienced this during a social work class and never really did anything with it.  Lastly, I am interested in aromatherapy and am slowly learning on my own.  I would love to take the risk and do more with it.

So I definitely have risk that I want to take, and maybe I am slowly moving forward to actually taking them.  I am at least trying to learn more so that if and when I do take the risk, I will have more knowledge, which will hopefully make me more comfortable!

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Wishcasting Wednesday

I'm joining in again with for wishcasting Wednesday.  I love these questions to get your thought going!

What do you wish to say yes to?

I want to say yes to my true, authentic self.  What is that?  I am not totally sure, but I think I am someone who wants to always learn new things, things that aren't always the mainstream culture.  I want to say yes to being more spiritual, more natural, more creative.  I want to say yes to trying new things, to trying to use my love of creativity and natural health to help provide for my family.  I want to say yes to using my social work experience along with all of this if possible.  I will be learning more about aromatherapy (unfortunately through books and not classes) and will be taking a journaling class in December.  I wish to use this new information in all areas of my life.

I also wish to say yes to blogging about my true feelings without holding back.  I am realizing just how much I love blogging, my form of electronic journaling.  I still like to keep a handwritten journal, but I am finding my blogs to be more accessible at times.


Friday, October 16, 2009

The Joy Diet: Creativity

Last week's post was about desires.  One of my desires related to this week's topic: Creativity.  The only problem is that given that I am a SAHM to 3 kids under 2, I have very little time to fulfill my creative desires.  Since we are down to only one income, lack of free funds also limits my creativity since I am unable to try out al the new creative ideas that are out there.

When I think about my life, I think that I have always been a creative person.  My favorite Christmas gift as a child was the large box of craft supplies that my grandparents would get us each year.  I loved learning to sew, knit, and crochet from my grandmother.  I loved going through her scrap yarn and material.  I loved playing in my dad's woodshop.  I loved doing ceramics with my mom.  Then I became a teenager and dropped all the craft things that I loved for friend and school.  The one creative thing that I did keep was music.  I remained active in the school's music dept and was able to enjoy it, but when I look back, I don't think I enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed my other creative endeavors.  Once I graduated from college and started working, I started to pick up being creative again and loved trying out new creative ventures.

I recently have had a very busy 3 years.  I now don't have the time and even the energy to be as creative as I would like.  Thankfully, I am able to be creative because I want to create things for my 3 kids.  I was able to make them simple Christening outfits and need to start on their Halloween costumes.  As much as I am grateful that I am being creative, I wish that I was able to create for the fun, but not just for the end product.

My wish/goal is to find time everyday to be creative.  It doesn't have to be a grand activity, actually it can be something small as long as it fulfills that creative part of me.  I believe the act of being creative vs the end product of creativity is what is important.  As a social worker, I believe that creativity is an important way to feed the body, mind, and soul and someday I'll find a way to combine the 2.


Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Wishcasting Wednesday

What do I wish to let go of?  I'm joining in with for Wishcasting Wednesday.

Unfortunately, I think I tend to hold on to thing longer than I should.  Even when I think I have let go of different issues that come up in my life, I find that sometimes these issues come back to haunt me and I realize that I have just forgotten for a moment, but did not really let go.  Right now I think that the thing I need to let go of most is my frustration with my brother in law.  We have had issues in the past, and I have to admit that things are much better this time around, but things are still stressful with him as I'm sure he feels they are with me.  I think, no I know that I need to let go of things in the past with him and move forward on a more positive note.  I know that one thing that I need to let go of with him is the fact that he could make a living with his passion and he does not use it that way.  I think I know my passions but I don't think that I could really make a true living at it, at least not with a family.  I am trying to find a way to use what I am passionate about in a career setting, but I don't know if I will ever be able to do so.  I will continue to search for a career where I can be passionate about what I am doing, but I will really try to let go of my jealousy/envy of those who could have this but don't seem to want to use it.


Tuesday, October 13, 2009

The Joy Diet:Desire

I found this blog that talked about The Joy Diet, a book from Martha Beck and decided to join in.  The current topic is desire.  I think when we first think about the word desire we think more about sexual desire, but for me right now desire is what do I most want out of life.  I desire to have fun with my 3 kids, I desire to have a happy, healthy life and home, I desire to be more creative, and I desire to ensure that my husband and I have time to share with each other!  I pretty much am able to ensure that all of this happens, but I am no where near as creative as I would like to be.  With 3 kids 19 months and 8 1/2 months, it is difficult to find time to meet all of one's desires.

I think that there is one desire that I am no where near fulfilling.  I want to find what I want to do with my life.  What is my passion?  What can I do for work that will allow me to provide for my family while stimulating my desires and passions and make me happy?  I know that being creative in my life's work is very important, I just haven't found how to do that!  One day I will find my true passion and a way to make it work to help provide for my family.

With the next chapter being creativity, I plan to start a new creative endeavor this week!  I still need scarecrow decorations for the yard.  I was going to buy them, but they just looked so cheezy and cheap.  I have all the supplies to make them, but I haven't yet.  I plan to create them on my own, not following a pattern.  I then need to sew halloween costume, make a guest book for my sister's wedding, and finish writing out thank you cards for the kids' Christening (I already have made the cards).  Lots to do to keep up my creativity.  I just need to make sure that I maintain my enjoyment of creating and not let it get to be more of a chore than a pleasure.

Next time, Creativity!


Going Green

Well my plan to go green has not been going well at all.  I started out doing great when I started this blog, but now that Tom is back in school, it's crazy how busy I am.  Things are much busier and we haven't been able to get to the farmers market as much as we were during the summer.  I still try to cook more than doing take out, but we are doing take out more than I would like.  I am also spending more time in my car, which is definitely not green.  I have not been walking like I wanted to.  My goal was to shop daily by walking to the grocery store with the 3 kids.  That way, I would be buying what we needed, not using the car as much, and getting some exercise.  Unfortunately I have not been doing this.  I was actually going to start today, but it is raining and I am not taking 3 kids for a walk in the rain.  Thankfully I had bought most of the stuff for a crockpot version of butternut squash soup.  I believe that the crockpot (slow cooker) is a pretty green way of cooking.  Not only can you save energy this way, but I can get dinner started in the morning and not have to worry about it for the rest of the day.  So far I have made 2 new recipes in the slow cooker.  Tonight is the squash soup with no dairy.  Supposedly it's just as creamy as other versions that are ladened with cream and fat.  We'll see how it turns out.  I did buy a new slow cooker cook book that I will be trying out often (I hope).  I hope to get back on track with my going green!  I am still trying to recycle, but still need to work better on not driving as much, cooking for my family, and trying to eat either locally or what's in season!  Also I need to continue to eat healthier, exercise and use green cleaning products!

Go Green!