Recently, I have been making dolls, or at least attempting to make dolls. I remember loving dolls as a child, especially the Raggedy Ann and Andy dolls that my grandmother made for us. I remember having life-size Raggedy Ann and Andy dolls as well as small ones. I was lucky enough to have a Raggedy Ann doll for my daughter and a Raggedy Andy doll for each of my sons, made by my grandmother. I actually have to make a Raggedy Andy outfit for my twin son's Raggedy Andy. I am hoping to create some dolls for charity, as well as for fun.
My attempt at a Waldorf doll
Baby Bows Doll in the outfits that my twins came home from the hospital in. I still need to make one for my oldest!
A sleepytime doll that I made for my niece for her Christening
The more I create, the more I realize that I love doing it. I know that I need to make time to have this as part of my life. I am hoping to make being creative a major part of my life, and not just something that I do when I find the time. I know that I need to start spending time actually getting good at a craft before I move on to something else. There are many times that I think that I have ADD, seriously, and the creative arena is o different. I flit from one project to another, never committing to fully learning and fully succeeding at the one I am working on. I want to stop being average at the things I create and start being proficient at it.
I also want to start getting more creative in my cooking. The farmer's market in town is starting in a couple of weeks and I hope to start buying more local foods and start being more creative with it. Between my BRCA2 gene mutation (I think I have decided against surgery, at least for now) and my son recently being diagnosed with PDD NOS, I really need to watch what we are eating. My goal is again to eat more local and to eat way more fruits and veggies (little to no animal protein for me due to the BRCA2 mutation), and decrease, maybe even totally eliminate gluten and dairy (we again have greatly reduced it, but not totally eliminated it, both my oldest and I are sensitive to it). Part of my problem with cooking lately, is that I am bored and not feeling very creative with my cooking. I am hoping to get inspired by going to local farmer's markets and even just walking around. I am hoping to find some good cookbooks and some good online sites that can help to inspire me.
I am hoping to find a job at the end of the summer that will be able to take into account my love of creating. I am under no illusion that there may not be anything out there like that, but I would love to try to find something. I still have a few more years before I go back to work full time. I hope by then, I can figure out how I can do work that I love instead of just working for a paycheck. I do like being a social worker, but I don't love it. My husband thinks that it is just because of fear of doing 1:1 counseling, but that is not it. I don't know that I want to do 1:1 counseling! I'm not really sure I know what I want to do, but I really want to wake up and want to go to work. Hopefully I can figure out a way for that to happen.