I'm finally getting back on track, albeit very, very slowly. There are some things that I have changed about my health/eating/creative life, which have gone back to my bad ways, but I am starting to get my focus back to where it needs to be and this time (even though I've said it before) I am taking things slow and really thinking about my decisions. I am really, really going to try not to beat myself up for not following through. I am going to really work at being positive about these changes that I want to make and I think just changing my attitude is going to be a huge help.
Along with changing my eating, there are a lot of other changes that I have been working on. Some have really worked out well, and some not so well. I was going to try to sew an hour a day this week, making clothes for the kids. That pretty much didn't happen. What I have done with regards to sewing for the kids is start working on their room darkening shades. I still have quite a bit to do for them, but at least I got started. Right now, as much as sewing clothes would be a benefit, I really need to focus on the shades. I could buy them, but where's the fun in that.
I have decided that I really love cooking, I just hate the cleaning up part. I think the cleaning up (not to mention the addiction I have to eating out and eating crap) is what makes me not want to cook. I am absolutely loving blogs. I think I have a slight addiction to reading blogs, I just don't have enough time to really read all the ones that I want to. I love that there are so many resources out there to help me find recipes that I really want to try. I love that, even though I love to buy cookbooks, I don't have to. I love that when I need to find a new and healthy recipe, I can just type in a search and I can find what I am looking for.
Along with reading cooking and craft blogs, I love finding natural health blogs. Aromatherapy and natural cleaning solutions are a couple of the areas that I have an interest in. I have to say though, my diet blogs are usually blogs that fall into the category of natural health because they are usually blogs that are vegetarian/vegan or deal with health and allergies, not just food blogs in general, or at least I look for healthy food options within my ideal diet on a lot of the blogs that I read (though I do admit to coveting a ton of non-healthy recipes that I don't make but would love to!).
Tonight I made broccoli rabe with white beans, carrots, and onions in a garlic walnut oil sauce and I ate it with brown rice. OMG, was it awesome. I love broccoli rabe anyway, but this was just a way to eat it with some protein and some other veggies and have it be just a little different. I used this recipe, http://hungrybruno.blogspot.com/2009/01/broccoli-rabe-with-beans.html, but I didn't add the bread crumbs or the parmesan cheese, which probably would have made it even better.
I am making a promise to myself now. I will not ever give up. the goals may change, but shouldn't they be fluid anyway?