It's Wednesday once again and once again, Jamie Ridler at http://www.jamieridlerstudios.ca asks, "What Do You Wish To Rise Above?"
I thought about this and read other's posts, all of whom wrote great posts on this topic, and decided that I wish to rise above my insecurities! When I think about all the different things that are going on in my life, have gone on in my life, and will be going on in my life, I think about how i am often held back by my insecurities, my fear of failure. If there is one thing that I really need to work on, it's my insecurities. I know I don't think I'm good enough at a lot of different things and am only ok at somethings. I need to give myself permission to fail. Without some failure, you don't learn. Failure doesn't have to be bad/negative!
I also think that my insecurities fuel some of my other issues. I can be really judgmental of others, especially if I have found myself in a similar situation. I need to let it go and have a little more empathy (which is really important since my career is in social work and empathy is huge). I need to let go of my past failures and not let the green eyed monster get me! I need to let go of my fear of being wrong and trust my instincts, for example having my older son tested for developmental delays. I am finally getting him tested and I am ok with what ever outcome we get. Of course, this would be one area that I would be happy to be wrong, but I don't want people to think that I am one of those mothers that always thinks that there is something wrong.
My insecurities can certainly hold me back. I am hopeful that if I can let go of my insecurities, I can maybe find more friends, trust myself, and be a little happier (especially given how great my life is). I am very thankful for my husband, my kids, my house, the fact that I can stay at home with my kids and be there for them. I have to remember to be aware of all the good things that I have and let go of those insecurities!
Amy