Figuring Out Who I Am

This winter has been a weird one. It started out pretty mild, the February hit and it has almost been the slowest winter. Though it has been cold and snowy, this is the first winter that I have not hated. Believe me, I am ready for spring, but I am dealing with the winter much better this year. I even, at times, wish we could move to Maine instead of thinking about moving South. With Spring on it's way, and the rebirth of life and energy, with longer days, and increased warmth to the days, I am taking this time to do some soul searching and taking some time to figure out who I am and what I need. I am looking at spring as a time for me to make changes in my life and as a time for me to reduce the clutter in my life and start fresh, or rebirth myself into the person I want to be. How do I plan on doing this? First, I am starting a 21 day sugar cleanse tomorrow. Second, I will be going through my belongings and looking to see what I can reduce, either by donating or by trashing/recycling. Third, I will be spending time getting organized so that my life is not the caps that I have been living (no ones fault but my own). Fourth, I will be increasing (ok actually doing) exercise. Finally, though this process, I am hoping to become more aware of me and who I am and what I want out of my life. I love my life! I love being married and having kids. I don't like what I look like or the amount of time I spend on the computer. I don't like how lazy I have become. I don't like how crappy I eat sometimes. I don't like how cluttered my life has become or how disorganized I am. These are the changes I want to make. I want to look in the mirror and be happy with who I am. I know that if I'm healthy and I get moving, I'll be happy with me. I will start moving and feeling better and stronger. I will spend less time on the computer and Facebook and more time with my family and actually be creative. I will get rid of clutter and get myself organized. With doing the sugar detox, I am hoping that my head will clear. I am hoping that I will be able to follow through with things and do what I need to do. I will be sharing my 21 day detox here, the good, the bad , and the ugly. I will share the foods I eat and how I feel while decoding. I'm not going to give up my coffee, but I am going to limit it and try to decrease the amount of cream in my coffee. I think eating clean, eating less sugar, and eating less foods that turn to sugar is going to me, my body, and my spirit loads of good! Amy

Wishcasting Wednesday

Jamie Ridler at jamieridlerstudios.ca asks "What do you wish for less of?"

Before I decided on my answer, I started reading other people's post and the subject of clutter came up.  I would say that this is what I want less of.  CLUTTER!

I tend to be a compulsive buyer of craft supplies to the point where I don't have time to use them, but I always want to have the supplies on hand just in case.  When I got married 3 years ago and sold the house that my grandmother and I had lived in (she died the year before), I moved not only my stuff but some of her stuff that I couldn't bear to get rid of, to my new home with my husband and his mother.  His mother was going to live with us because she was unable to live alone.  Now we had, my stuff, my grandmother's stuff, my husband's stuff, and his mother's stuff.  Unfortunately his mom passed away 1 month and 1 day after we got married.  I had just found out I was pregnant with my first son.  We tried to get rid of things, but we just didn't get rid of enough.  Three months after the birth of my son, I got pregnant with the twins who were born 5 weeks early and got sick and ended up back in the hospital for 3 weeks.  When they came home I had 6 week old twins and a 1 year old.  So, needless to say all the stuff that I had, just piled up and I really haven't had time to use it or get rid of a lot of it.  I keep trying, but I have a hard time parting with it.  Now that my kids are 2 1/2 and 19 months old, I am hoping that they can start doing craft projects with me and I can start using some of my things.

I wish to be able to let go of things that I will never use and to stop compulsively buying items that will only end up as more clutter.  I have made some progress in buying, but that is only because I don't let myself go into stores unless there is something that I need.

Amy