I wish people knew just how terrified I can get in new situations and in group settings. I wish people knew how much I fear what others think of me. I wish people knew how afraid I am that once they get to know me, they won't like me. I wish people knew how fearful I am of not doing things good enough, which ultimately means that I expect to do everything perfectly the first time I do it. I wish people knew how afraid of failure I am. I'm not sure anyone, even my husband realizes how I feel.
I have to admit that all of this fear has gotten better the older I've gotten. I am starting to be ok with who I am, but I still am leery of interacting in group situations and I am definitely leery of trying new things and putting myself out there, but at least now I actually attempt to interact in group situations and try new things. I absolutely prefer one on one situations. I have always loved having one best friend and pretty much spending all my time with them. I am not someone who enjoys large parties or groups. Even if I attend a large party or am in a large and even not so large group situation, I tend to spend my time interacting with one maybe two people.
Hopefully, this is something that I will be able to overcome. At least I am aware of this and can work on it.