I keep thinking about returning to work. Not anytime soon, but I know that it will come soon enough. I so don't want to go back to work doing the same old boring mundane thing, yet I am so scared to branch out and try something new. I keep day dreaming about what I would what to do if I were given a choice with no holds barred. Would I really want to be a social worker? On some level, probably. I do like being a social worker. I do like the whole psych piece of things, but, that being said, I have so many other interests that I would love to do something else.
My biggest question is what would I ultimately like to do? I think I would love to do something with natural health. The problem is, I have all these beliefs, but I never follow through with them. We were over a family members house tonight and someone started talking about things and all I could think was "you are all talk. You don't actually follow all these things that you say that you believe." The problem is, neither do I. If I really did what I believed, I would be eating a total vegan diet, no meat, no diary. I would also not be eating any gluten related foods. I would be drinking my water kefir. I would be making non dairy milk kefir. I would be making more kombucha and using it. I would be using more natural cleansers. I would be studying more about herbs and essential oils. I would be studying more about art therapy. I would be creating. I would be learning more about spirituality. I would spend more time outside with the kids. I would not be watching tv. I would not be on Facebook all the time. I would not be checking my e-mails. I would be either doing more with blogging to help with what I believe in not just reading people's blogs. I would journal more, and by journaling, I mean literally writing on paper. I would learn more about set journaling. I would learn more about soul collage (which I actually learned about in grad school for social work, so I know that there are ways I can use more alternative means of therapy vs just literal talk therapy. It has been done. there is a precedent for this type of thing). I would be better organized. I would cook more. I wouldn't drive as much. I would take the kids for walks more. I would try to be more of a part of my community. I would attempt to do charity crafting and maybe try to make it a community affair! I would try to follow through with what I believe, not just spout off at the mouth, like i sometimes feel that I do!
That was one long paragraph to basically state that I think I have all these beliefs and I think I want to use them in my career, but if i am not following through in my own life, how can I make it a career. I guess, I need to take a look at what I want out of life and try to figure out how to get it. I have about another 3-4 years before I am back in the work force full time. I keep writing about these things because I am hopeful that if I put it down on paper, I can figure out how to make it happen.
I am going to finish up by saying that I am going to try to follow through with my beliefs. I am going to watch less tv. I am going to read more. I am going to research the things that I am interested in and see if I can figure out how to make it into a career. I am going to create more! I am going to continue to follow through on my beliefs such as using handmade items, beauty products (soap, toothpaste, deodorant, cream), household cleansers, etc. I am going to research about herbs and veggie gardening. I am going to journal in a notebook more. I am going to read and learn more about soul collaging, meditating, and yoga and how all this relates to social work. There are so many things I want to do. I am hoping that taking time to write all this down is going to be helpful.