As always, I am answering the question Jamie Ridler asks at jamieridlerstudios.ca. Jamie asks, "How do you wish to come out of your shell?"
I wish to take more chances. I wish to open myself up and not be afraid of failure. I wish to find and follow my true passion in life.
This question is huge for me right now. I have always been a quiet, reserved, wall flower type of person until I get to know you and feel comfortable around you. I tend not to take chances in case I fail. I hate failure! I guess that is one of the reasons that I tend to limit my interaction with people. I am afraid that I will fail at the relationship. I am afraid that others will have no desire to interact with me, which means the relationship will fail! I am afraid to start selling things I create, due to my shyness, being more of an introvert, and fearing that people will not like the things that I create. I would love to teach creative classes, but I am afraid! I want to meet new people and make new friends.
I need to take chances and start talking to people! I will never meet new people unless I put myself out there. I want to meet new friends for me and my husband and for my kids too. I have joined another group in my town called parents of tots. I went to my first event today, and was so mad at myself for not putting myself out there. I don't think that I went up to anyone new and introduced myself. One way I want to come out of my shell is to start saying hi to people and talking to them. I am also thinking about joining another twins group, just to get myself out there and meet others in similar situations that I am in. For some reason, most of the people that I have met so far seem to not need another friend in their life. Sometimes, I feel like I attend things and I am always on the outside looking into a group. I haven't figured out if it is me, or if I just haven't met the right people yet. I have met some really nice people since I have had kids, but we never seem to get together as much as I would like. I think sometimes having kids can make things difficult with making friends, but I also think that my shyness/quiet personality plays a major role in things too.
I have been thinking about starting an etsy.com store for some time now. I have actually started an account there, I just have never listed anything. I want to give a rosary that I created to a family member for a Baptism. It is a rosary made out of swarovski crystals in the baby's birthstone. I made it a while ago and if I remember right, it came out nice, I just need to double check it. Another way that I can come out of my shell is with my craft. I love to make things and I tend to be fearful of giving things to people, fearing that they will not like what I made or that the quality is not good enough. To come out of my shell in this area, I need to start creating gifts for people and feeling comfortable giving gifts of items that I have made! I need to start posting things on etsy.com or actually sign up for a craft fair or find some other way to share my creations! Maybe in time, I will have a studio and actually teach, or even get to the point where I have the education to do art therapy.
I need to come out of my shell, embrace who I am and what I love. I need to find my passion (which I think I may already have) and follow my true passion in life vs waiting and hoping for my dreams to come true. For this to happen I need to take risks and absolutely and totally come out of my shell!
Thank you Jamie for prompting me to put this down in writing!